Feelings

Well today here I sit with a lot on my mind. On May 18th I have a phone conference hearing about my child support. I have mixed feelings that this will go my way. I would like to think that someday I will catch a break and I can have my life. Of course with so much on my mind I haven't been myself lately and this too is weighing on Jen. She thinks I am unhappy with her which I am most definitely not. She also has this opinion that because we don't make love every day or every couple of days and I don't get hard in a second I'm not interested in her. Well I am interested in her but how do I explain to her that I'm not the sex demon she thinks I am. Truth in fact I love making love to her and don't want to make love to anyone else nor do I want anyone else sexually, I just want her. I just love the closeness of holding each other and being able to be in bed and cuddle and fondle without the expectation that it has to turn into sex. I'm not some young horny toad that gets hard when the wind blows or every nano second. I love Jen with all my heart and soul and everything that I am. I wish that I could get her to see that. What I see/want in people is different than what most people see. They only see what is on the surface, I look at what is down deep, what makes up a person so to speak. Well hopefully someday I will be able to get her to understand. Well I must go for now and check on the laundry.