Lost

Well today is yet another day. I am feeling overwhelmed today. Jen is very sick and I'm sure I'm catching it. I am trying to balance work and do as much as I can around the house so that Jen doesn't have to. However I feel like I'm failing at that task as I seem to be screwing up at work and not getting everything done around here. I ache all over and my chest has been hurting for about a week now. Not sure what is up with that, and I feel very weak and really have no energy to anything.
I am soooo worried about this child support stuff and hope that all goes well for me but I just don't know. On paper it looks good but my gut tells me that it's going to get ugly.
I really need some balance in my life and work. I hate that I feel like every thing I do at work is being scrutinized and there are people just waiting for me to screw up so that they can blast me. There doesn't seem to be a way that I can make it go right. It feels like for every good day there are 5 bad ones to go with it. I wish that I could find another job that would get out from under this type of scrutiny. I liked it better when I worked in Ocala and there wasn't anybody really caring what I did. Don't get me wrong, I did my job but I feel like my "teammates" don't like me and are just lying in wait for me. I'm hoping that once my CS is done with I can get away from this company and get a job that I actually like and is strictly 9-5 so to speak.