Some Feelings

Well it is another day here in Florida and we seem to back at the tensions with Debby. Jen keeps telling me that she doesn't feel like my wife and doesn't feel married. So I ask you how is that supposed to feel. As I have never really felt any different married over single. The main difference I feel is that when I was single it was like whatever. Now I do things for my wife and Tristin as they need them done and everything I do is for them and I think about them constantly. I wish I could understand what Jen is actually talking about and how she is supposed to feel being married as opposed to not being married. After all I'm a guy and as such don't really pay much attention to these feelings. Not sure if guys have these feelings or not. I'm just very sad that Jen and I have been married for almost a year and yet we have riding this rollercoaster of feelings. My feelings for Jen never change but she seems to go in good days and bad days. I'm not sure if the bad days coincide with her just giving up and refusing to ignore the bad in our pasts. I love her more than she will ever possibly know or could know. For me there is nobody else in this world that I want to spend my life with. She makes me happy and makes me smile and we have such great times together. Well it's time to leave for work, I will try to write more tomorrow when I'm off from work.